Precious Moments

I really love watching Kellen be a big brother to baby Neve. He is so gentle and concerned. He is really interested in her and asks lots of questions. One topic of interest is what the baby's voice will be like. He often mentions wanting to know her voice.

I captured this moment of finding him reading a transfomer book to her and explaining who's who.

Cuddling Neve or looking at her sweet face usually gives me perspective at how precious this time is (even though I can't seem to get much accomplished and sometimes get frustrated trying to deal with the needs of 3 demanding kids at once!) Watching Kellen "take care of" his sister also reminds me to take notice of these precious moments. I look forward to knowing her voice too, but I am really enjoying this little babe and don't want time to go too quickly.

photo by Kellen

Lanelle's 3!

Dear Lanelle,

You are 3! You are growing up so quickly. You are so full of personality and always making us laugh. You are so independant and demanding - which I noted about you when you were turning 1. You love to play rough and tough play with your brother. Transformers, guns, and trucks. Lately you are expressing your girly side more - you've been wanting to wear skirts, playing dress up, and wanting to do ballet. You love to color, do puzzles, and make up imaginative stories that often involve your favority character - Toothless. You love to talk and to talk VERY loudly. You like to be heard! On your birthday, you chose your outfit after pulling out all your skirts looking for one that was long enough. You wouldn't let me do your hair though. You hate getting your hair brushed. I loved the poses you did for me:You picked out a sprinkle cake mix for your birthday. We mixed it up together and made this fun creation. You LOVE marshmallows and were so excited to help cut them up and make flowers.

You were so excited for your party. You wanted your cousins - Arwen, Ivan, Dominique, and Emora. You decided to put on your caterpillar costume while you were playing and did not want to take it off! You had so much fun and were so happy with your special day! We are so thankful for you and for each day of your life! It is so beautiful to watch you grow.

Giveaway at Inspired Mama!

I tried to order the book, One Thousand Gifts the other week when I saw it on In(courage) but ran into issues getting it delivered to Canada. Here's my second chance at Inspired Mama - which is a wonderful blog to check out for mamas!

Adjustments

I've been wanting to document for myself about how we are adjusting to being a family of 5. I just never seem to find the time or know exactly what I want to say. Depends on the day or the minute.

Yesterday I felt like supermom and thought how easy this adjustment is going. By 10 a.m. I had showered, we were all dressed, beds made, breakfast was cleaned up, meals for the day planned, baby was bathed and sleeping again, I was reading books with the big kids, and I even had planned our week of Kids of Integrity activities. I went to bed last night with a clean house. Today, at 11:30 a.m. I was still not showered or dressed, the kids were not dressed, they had been playing computer/watching movies with barely any supervision, I had changed diapers too many times and Neve was on her third outfit of the day, been nursing/rocking/bouncing constantly, had no idea what was for lunch, was starting to feel frustrated because nothing was working out, and I finally showered while listening to baby cry.

So, I will try to accept whatever way the day goes, while I figure out how to manage all the needs in front of me. I have asked the kids a few times when I am tending to babe and both of them are fussing at me for something. "Hey, how many moms are in the room? How many kids? That's right only 1 mom for 3 kids, so you have to be patient." Kellen especially gets it and either quits fussing or will even make an effort to help. Which is nice, and also makes me feel bad for him that he is always waiting the longest for attention.

One more complaint before I move on to the positive - I miss this... the freedom to just get dressed up and get outside. I feel cooped up and miss being able to walk down with Lanelle in the sled to pick up Kellen from pre-K or to go the library and coffee shop.

But -

• Neve has the sweetest face and her brief little smiles make me melt
• Kellen is amazing to watch and listen to with his littlest sister. I have been delighted with the way he wants to talk to her, read to her, cuddle her...
• It just feels right to be at this point, loving these 3 kids
• I know how fast it goes. I may totally miss out on x-country skiing this season, but there are many more winters to come.
• Spring is not far away, and everything will be easier by then.
• I am so thankful for this time to be at home with my lovely 3!

Neve Lavine

Neve Lavine arrived 11:37pm on Friday, January 21st. We all love her to pieces already. And Mommy is pretty tired, so I'll just leave these pictures...

All About Kellen

We picked up Kellen a late Xmas present on the way through the city on Boxing Day. I really wanted to get him skis, maybe for selfish reasons. He's be talking more about hockey and which of his friends play. I would love the skip that whole rink scene. Before anyone gets uptight - yes, if he really wants to still in a couple of years, I will let him play. I'm just wanting to give him opportunity to grow interest in more family friendly sports!

We decided to start him off with a private lesson, hoping to ensure it was a good experience. I thought he would be more patient and less likely to get frustrated. I went out to take pictures with 15 minutes left and he started to take off his skiis when he saw me. The instructor convinced him to go a couple more times. I was feeling sad that he didn't love it and want to keep going. They finished and when I went get him he was a little frantic trying to get off his skiis and whispered to me with big eyes, "Mom, I really have to pee. It's an emergency." After that was taken care of and he'd had some lunch he had so much fun skiing for several more hours and wasn't in a hurry to quit at all. We were trying to do things right for a good first experience, but forgot about an important pre-ski bathroom stop for a 4 yr-old.

The next Saturday morning we found out that the bunny hill lift ticket is free for 5&under. Amazing to me that Ian can drive across town and chase him around on the hill for a morning for free.

Seems he is growing up way too fast lately. Interesting how my concerns
for him start changing. I can see how hard it will be as he continues to
grow and make more and more of his own decisions. I have been surprised at how he is developing worries and concerns. At Halloween he was pretty concerned before a party if the other kids would like his costume. He asked the other day "what if kids don't like me?" It's easy to say it doesn't matter, don't worry what others think... But, I realize more that talking to him about things like that won't make those concerns go away. I think its probably just part of growing up and figuring things out.

I heard this song by Carolyn Arends this morning and it spoke to those mother feelings I've been having for him...

From the moment you arrived here I've been utterly amazed
Astonished at your level of perfection
So it breaks my heart in pieces to imagine all the ways
You'll get hurt in spite of my protection
'Cause someday I'll have to send you like a soldier off to school
And the lesson you will learn there is that kids can be so cruel

So however well they like you and whatever grade you get
Promise me, baby, that you won't forget
Even the wallflowers do survive -- they can thrive
Even in the shadows
And there is a power in finding out for yourself
Rain or shine, whichever way it goes
Even the wallflowers grow

I hope they choose you early when the captains pick their teams
And I pray that they invite you to their dances
I hope it doesn't hurt too much the times you skin your knees
And that your heart endures its first romances

I cannot imagine anyone not loving you
But everybody feels alone at least a time or two
And I wish that I could spare you any heartache down the road
But maybe then, baby, you never would know
Even the wallflowers do survive -- they can thrive
Even in the shadows
And there is a power in finding out for yourself
Rain or shine, whichever way it goes
Even the wallflowers
Grow in soil that's watered by
Every single tear they cry
Believe me, baby, you will live
And someday you will tell your kid

Even the wallflowers do survive -- they can thrive
Even in the shadows
And there is a power in finding out for yourself
Rain or shine, whichever way it goes
Even the wallflowers grow

Getting Closer

I am getting closer to being ready. Ready for a hospital trip now with a pair of slippers. Buttons to be added later. A super satisfying one evening knit, while I patiently wait.