I feel like writing something tonight, but I keep erasing everything and starting again. I suppose I don't like a lot of my thoughts right now. I feel a little bored and antsy, even though I should have no legitimate reason to. I invited friends over for lunch and our morning was far from boring (with 6 kids/babies in our little house)! I love being outside in the park everyday. I am so thankful for my beautiful kids. I am so thankful that I get to be at home with them. At the same time, something is bugging me. I'm tired of doing the same thing. I was telling Ian that I feel like life is passing me by. Why - I don't understand. Life is pretty good, well, really good. So why do I feel like I'm going crazy at home so often? I can't believe that I can admit that I am already looking forward to going back to work (even though at the same time I'm dreading it!!) I know, I should make up my mind about how I feel!! Where's the harmony I was talking about?? I think the most peaceful I've ever felt is on a canoe trip. Why?... Life is not cluttered. With busyness or things. Everything is so simple. Enjoy the people your with, enjoy the scenery. I even enjoy myself more - relaxed and unstressed. Ok, i'm feeling a little more relaxed already. I'll take those memories with me. Maybe next time I stop by here, I'll be able to tell you that those feelings were the loudest in my day.