Thursday, March 27, 2008
My Baby Girl
I think lanelle was trying to keep an eye on things while she slept. She's getting cuter all the time and making me fall more in love with her. She smiled and smiled at me today. It's good to take a moment and remember how much I love my kids. I'm tired of not getting a break. I haven't felt like myself this week. I found myself the other evening trying to find baby advil for Kellen but the pharmacy was closed. Both kids were crying in the back seat and I started to also. Not ready to go home and deal with the wailing baby and sick kid I started driving. I just about drove to Regina but realized that was ridiculous and turned around after Lanelle fell asleep and Kellen looked like he was ready to. And I called a friend when I got home. She brought half her medicine cabinet and took off her shoes and said she was staying to help for a bit. When she left I didn't feel like crying anymore, the house was tidied, she'd done the pile of dishes from the day, I'd got the laundry folded, and both kids were asleep. I don't know why its so hard to ask for and accept help sometimes. I've thought lots about that since...but I'm going to bed, maybe another time I'll share what I think about that.